I am unbelievably happy. To think, it's been more than half a year gone now. I have to acknowledge that with those months that have passed, you have passed as well. It's no longer you. It doesn't always have to be you.
I used to think that this was it. No one else compared. But I was so wrong.
Life is too amazing to be spent wallowing about in faded memories and broken dreams. I've never been one to dissolve into hurt, but that is exactly what I did. I see that now.
But also with start of a new school year, first ever iv auditions, so many more great opportunities that I know are bound to happen, I feel free again. It's not as if you never happened. You did and that was that. But because of you, I am the person I am today. Because of the happiness you gave me, I know what sadness is. Because of the sorrow you gave me, I know true joy now.

It's all been a blessing in disguise.

Yet also with the changing months, I can say that you have changed too. Not for the better though. I can wish all I want, I can hope all I want, I can do it all but it's not going to work. You're long gone. Instead I see a stranger who instead of letting faith be the guide, lets ambition do it. I'm sorry and I am not. I'm thankful but I am not.
You are who you are; sometime's we just can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved.

I wear everything you gave me with grace.
I can wear it, and strangely I don't feel what I used to.
I have my faith all over me, and I am so happy.